Ive started painting again. I missed it so much. I loose hours while painting. I have to say that maybe my paintings arent "good" to some, but boy do I enjoy it. I think its like directing a movie. I couldnt imagine having to try to get what colors, movements and feelings across so that another person could try to see what I see.
I ll do a painting and come back to it the next day- and think hmmm I dont remember thinking or seeing this but I like it! So weird..and maybe a bit borderline loopy but I yam what I yam ;)
Ive been thinking alot about my weight, what Im doing with my life and where I plan on being. My fears all balled into one when "future" comes into my head. I used to always worry worry worry about where I was going, and I missed out on what was happening in front of my face. So, I think I may have taken it to the extreme in just living for the moment. Im not saying I do not look at consequences any more but I am definitely trying to avoid being scared to live.
So what that my cross country move has limited me to a one bedroom living area? Ive made the room into something that is comfortable and where I can relax. And husband still has not found a job? Well atleast I am working and we want for nothing. I feel bad that he is here in the room- like a illegitimate child that resembles the milk man ..hee hee ( whole story line going in my head there..but you get the picture). Bless his little heart he does try. There are just no effen jobs out there!
There are talks of a wedding party/reception for us..since we married in Texas. That will be ossum! Will get to do karaoke for the first time and probably embarrass my self. Ive never met a more accepting family. They have opened their arms to me with out wanting anything in return. How cool is that...didnt know families did that!!
Oh ..back to artsy fartsy ..see there I went again! Ive been practising eyes today..omgoosh so hard. Im all out of erasers at the mo..so will have to put the drawing on hold till I get some because I am running out of paper lol. Last week I was on a leg fetish and drew a fish with legs - called Tempted by Love, and then a show girl on a stage for my good friend Dani. (Which I hope to see at the party). Ive done a self portrait of when I had black hair and now back to my natural blonde. The water color pencils I am using are not the best quality I think, but they are good for my beginning stuff.
I think I burnt myself out on the fimo clay...but to be honest I wasnt that good at it except for making sweets, ice creams and things like that...so you can only make so many cakes !
Its finally getting warm here, but the skies are still grey..merry ol England eh? Have really only been talking to yaya from Texas..which sucks. But I guess I have been gone a year now, and its easy to "work" your way out of peoples lives. No fault of anyone. Just the way it is.
Am so wanting our own house, if not just to buy a Wii fit and get this chunky cuteness into a bit of shape! I hate the food here in England, but I sit on my arse 90% more than I did in the states.
And if one more person says...WHITE GRAVY WHAT IS THAT??while crinkling up their cute Brit nose...Im going to projectile vomit.
As a blogger that I follow said:
I am sending Unicorns your way, farting rainbows to brighten your day :)
I ll do a painting and come back to it the next day- and think hmmm I dont remember thinking or seeing this but I like it! So weird..and maybe a bit borderline loopy but I yam what I yam ;)
Ive been thinking alot about my weight, what Im doing with my life and where I plan on being. My fears all balled into one when "future" comes into my head. I used to always worry worry worry about where I was going, and I missed out on what was happening in front of my face. So, I think I may have taken it to the extreme in just living for the moment. Im not saying I do not look at consequences any more but I am definitely trying to avoid being scared to live.
So what that my cross country move has limited me to a one bedroom living area? Ive made the room into something that is comfortable and where I can relax. And husband still has not found a job? Well atleast I am working and we want for nothing. I feel bad that he is here in the room- like a illegitimate child that resembles the milk man ..hee hee ( whole story line going in my head there..but you get the picture). Bless his little heart he does try. There are just no effen jobs out there!
There are talks of a wedding party/reception for us..since we married in Texas. That will be ossum! Will get to do karaoke for the first time and probably embarrass my self. Ive never met a more accepting family. They have opened their arms to me with out wanting anything in return. How cool is that...didnt know families did that!!
Oh ..back to artsy fartsy ..see there I went again! Ive been practising eyes today..omgoosh so hard. Im all out of erasers at the mo..so will have to put the drawing on hold till I get some because I am running out of paper lol. Last week I was on a leg fetish and drew a fish with legs - called Tempted by Love, and then a show girl on a stage for my good friend Dani. (Which I hope to see at the party). Ive done a self portrait of when I had black hair and now back to my natural blonde. The water color pencils I am using are not the best quality I think, but they are good for my beginning stuff.
I think I burnt myself out on the fimo clay...but to be honest I wasnt that good at it except for making sweets, ice creams and things like that...so you can only make so many cakes !
Its finally getting warm here, but the skies are still grey..merry ol England eh? Have really only been talking to yaya from Texas..which sucks. But I guess I have been gone a year now, and its easy to "work" your way out of peoples lives. No fault of anyone. Just the way it is.
Am so wanting our own house, if not just to buy a Wii fit and get this chunky cuteness into a bit of shape! I hate the food here in England, but I sit on my arse 90% more than I did in the states.
And if one more person says...WHITE GRAVY WHAT IS THAT??while crinkling up their cute Brit nose...Im going to projectile vomit.
As a blogger that I follow said:
