bubbling, a tickling of ...oh look sparkley

I would like to list my unknowns that are bubbling at a low simmer...just to get them out and about..
Maybe airing them will give life to a solution, or maybe conclusion?
1. Im 30, and clueless to what I want to be..
2. I have a severe in-ability to stay focused, I am now 10 second Tom on most days.
3. Why does my sense of what looks good one day, looks crap the next??? (this is getting to be an expensive unknown as well!)
4. Why do I always listen to others, and try sooo hard to not make a movie out of what they are saying, yet a 10 min conversation has turned into a 2 hour movie!!! Complete with period costumes, accents and music.
5. Fridays make me 2 second Tom..I literally can not connect a sentence to save my life...
6. I stutter sometimes, like when starting out a sentence. I see it all playing in my head..but just can not get it out.
7. I have become extremely passionate about music, I search and listen. Anything I can get my hands on. This is not so much a worry, but a very drastic change from a few months ago.
8.I have thankfully stopped drinking so much, but now, when I do..Its a lot in one sitting. ...ugh and hangovers.I never used to get hangovers. So now on my binge Friday...Saturday is no fun :(
9. I used to be quite bad about staying in, now Im terrible! Me and R stay in most weekends. WE love it. But how do our friends feel?? Is it wrong to stay in?? Im not sure now days? The playstation, movies, reading, blogging, taking photo's, researching (my absolute favorite besides music btw..), I mean there is a plethora of things to do!!! But is lack of Vitamin D making a third tail or horns grow?
10. My indecisiveness.I can not make a decision if ...well if a horse was dragging me down the road and I had to decide if it was a knaw your foot off or ..idk scream for help type thingy..see I just kinda start to drift.
Sigh...So these things dont make me scared or worried I guess...maybe its just nice to lay it all out, well some of it anyway. Just a few things tickling my brain on some days...why am I this way???
11. I want to touch, smell, hold, see EVERYTHING. Im a collect whore when it comes down to it all. I may loose interest after a bit, but for the brief period that it holds my eyes, I love finding new things, and learning how things work..Discovery Channel junkie-
However, if I wasnt, then who the hell would I be! ;)