Giving away those tender pieces..

It amazes me..well I guess it shouldnt. Those that stand before you or people around you feeling so high and mighty, when in reality, they are no better. I try every day to not judge.To not become jaded and worry only of my circle. My circle...you tell a tender piece of thought. It is your thought, and no one elses. You think to share this morsel, and it to be analyzed, sure. Understood, hopefully. Considered, of course. Because you are telling those few in your circle whom you trust..you expect respect and loyalty.
I have been told I am incorrect in my thought process of the way our mind works.By several people. Wrong? Who is wrong? Arent we all allowed to believe how we want. And especially those with in that circle you have enveloped yourself with, those with in it should encourage and give support..sigh. Science, chemicals and yes, I believe in the things that go bump in the night.. haven't explained them yet, but I know they are there...or well I think they are there.From my family, I am the black sheep. And that is fine, because the ones in my family that truly love me, still love me. And dont judge..those very few that I love ;) All of this have been discussed.On many many occasions, in different settings...with my circle of beings that I have grown quite fond of. Most have  listened to, some have analyzed...but considered.No
Its a good thing I think, to have a variety in your circle. Provides constant thought and possible ideas to a whole knew process of thinking. But after 30 years, you would think by now..there were some consideration.
I know my friends love me, and I them. Are my ideas that far fetched? Is my thoughts on love, karma and jelly beans that wrong??
All in all, the people I allow and allow me around their circle, are great and amazing. But I think my "human expectation" level gets me in to trouble.
I used to say that, and still do...my H.E. level is too high. Im sure it sounds like I am putting myself on a pedestal, trust me, I am not. Everyone has their own expectations. You can be hard and say, nope not me, I dont expect shit from anyone..Dont give me that.
We all want love, we all want acceptance, and we all want people we can trust. Trust..what a hard word to even imagine this day in age. You think, Aha! I found it!! But alas, you most likely didnt. I trust very very few people now days. And I think that plays it smart...

 It takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it

But there is that expectation, that everyone has. But am I  to assume that its different for everyone? Now, I have lived my life by a few hands down must do's. Especially in my family, in my small town.And one is never say something about anyone that you wouldn't say to their face. So I have not tread on feet, but again, is this my expectation level gone sky high? To expect it to be done vice versa?? Tsk tsk...Pepper, you should know better!!
And now, does my distrust make my jaded ..Oh see there you go, I knew it...self come out?
Sigh, I guess, at the end of the day, you have those you want in your life, and those you dont, So, I can always say thanks Momma, for teaching me to cut someone out of your life in a split second, with out ever looking back...